i HATE u!!!
go away from me!!
as far as possible..


*hatred filled*
im feelin so nan shou right now!!!
breathless..
chest pain!~!~!
stupid cough plz go away..

STOP TORTURING me!!!!
*half dead*
昨天和我中学的死党聚会..
也给雪芳她的生日礼物..
去了MOF吃饭..
感觉是舒畅的..

一个个也对我的沉默感到不习惯..
LOL..

现在的我声音
也渐渐变成很不是我..
就要失声了...
声音快回来吧!!
刚过了二十一岁的我..
运气没那么好..
身体再也没以前的好..
被一场大病牵累着..
五天的病假..

下星期五还必须连续看两个医生..
全部很必须重新再来..
真的真的..
很伤心..
很失落..
很空虚..
我的外表看起来似乎很
坚强很
勇敢..

但

我的心灵..
却不是那样的..




常常是空虚的..
first of all..

i would like to thank everyone for gracing this epic event of mine!!
thks to relatives, cousins, pri, sec n poly friends!!
for attending my 21st bday!
which is held at Aranda Country Club
on SATURDAY..

the chalet was booked from fri-sun..
went by 7 seater cab..
tgt with my cousin, valerie n her mother..
checked in ard 4plus on friday..
after which..
unpacked the stuffs..
this n that..
n went cheers to get
some tidbits..
ice cubes..
n drinks!!
of coz der's PIZZA!

time passes..
soon 7pm le..
so watch tv..
shou zu..
plus eat steam boat..
which was prepared by my mum..
n my 3 other cousins came.. =D

so we eat..
chat.. n watch tv again..
around 10 plus near to 11..
bee, hong, rena n jing yi arrived..
so they unpacked n awhile later..
went to jackpot room!!
they didnt reali like..
but my cousins like!!
as well as me?? =x
LOL..

went for some walk with them n eventually back to chalet..
slp ard 3 i guess??
n woke up ard 9 or 10??

after that left for mac..
as they are craving for it?? lol
went to arcade..
n after that they went escape..
which i didnt go..

until ard 1 plus??
where me n my cousin, yan qi..
wanted to go back the chalet..
coz my cousins told me to start the decorating at 2..
but they keep forbidin me to go back..
:(..
haha..
n so qiao he..
my aunt msg me..
told me "your 2 friends are here.. after which asking if u got scotch tape"
LOL..
wahaha.. n i asked who?? she say duno..
1 girl n 1 guy..
LOL..

when i went back the chalet ard 3??
the whole chalet was decorated!!
done!! with the decorations!!
balloons n banners all up!!
v nicely done!!! appreciated!!!


that was the 1st Surprise..
coz.. initially jessie was like telling me..
she will be goin to lessons!! coz its impt..
mkaing me believe everything..
but yet..
in the end, she nv go.!!
she came to help out for my deco stuffs!
thks ger..

after which they are happily seated eating the steamboat!!!!
which i dun have.. :( LOL..
special thks to my best pal, Jessie n my beloved Cousins, CHEW n FANG..
for the ideas they have contributed..
n the collaboration jessie have with my parents..
baahh..
the deco stuffs my cousins have brought for me!

also thks to my bros,
sec sch family, bee, hong, rena, jingyi!!
for helpin to blow the balloons..

time passes v fast..
after 4..
bathe at 445?? or 5 like tat??
both buffets was here..
OSIKA n NEO GARDEN..
after that..
make ups, blowing of hair was done by my cousins n aunt.
it looks as if im "marrying off"..
god..
LOL..
All my cousins was FULLY DRESSED.. which makes it even more like a grand event..
so was my SEC SCHOOL FRENS..
They are all dressed with dresses too!!! =D
first to reach was my jia yu n weiling!
n the moment they see me..
to them was a surprise..
LOL..

n slowly..
all the guests starts to arrive..
golden key was given n worn on my neck by my parents.. =D
n silver key was given by my 3rd aunt! =D..
it was really the day where the key to freedom reali comes..

it was realli nice havin to once again meet all of them..
after ages since we last met..
mingle with them from 630 onwards to 10?? 1030??
the whole event was dimly lighted..
candles on every table..
where photos will tell everything..
like candle light dinner.. LOL..
the atmosphere is good i assume??
n the cake cutting session was 930pm!
Photos were taken with almost every group of category of frens n relatives

Der was reali a number of surprises sprang up for me!! =D
As well as most of them was surprised by my dressing!! =D
2nd n 3rd surprises was....
Der's 3 acting boyfrens! LOL..
Dun wanna say much.. *shy*..
LOL.. but perhaps photos will show??
Photos will be shown in the next posting..
After I gathered from my cousins!

Presents opening was at 12am..
On the exact day of my birthday!!
13th January!
after tat mahjong, and slight jackpot..
which was ard 3 am..
where my cousins helped me to clear the buffet thingy and
After that we went mac to look for bee they all..
shortly I left mac, coz packing of stuffs nt yet done..
so sorry as I didn’t get to attend u all much..

on Sunday..
after checking out..
head for white sands coffee club for breakfast n
home sweet home!!

Lastly..
Hope everyone enjoyed the event as much as I do..
n sorry if I didn’t attend to your needs promptly..

I truthfully appreciate all the presents given to me!
lurve you people!!
E tots of you people touched me sincerely!!
Pictures of photos of gifts n photo taking?? Hafta wait..
Tata!!

*to be continued!
tired tired tired..

im tired!!!
everyday!!!
time nv seems to be enough for NOW..

WORK..
STUDY..
PLANNIN..
WORK..
N
STUDY..
PLANNIN!!!

as well..
im sad..
:(
splendid weekends last week..
was my grandma...
sok hong's birthday..
lol..
makes her sound so old..
actually its her "21st Birthday"..
held at aloha changi..

time past..
we have joy n fun..
lol..
hope u like the gifts. =D

sat all stayed over..
n night time..
was playin of UNO, cards n BBQ..
after that so suay..
whole bench toppled onto me n liyi..

den we bathe..
3rd time of the day man.
gosh..

n since none of us managed to slp.
after the timin..
we had chats..
lol..
under the dark..
while e rest slp..
so much difficulty slpin 8 ple.
on 2 beds..

den sun..
meant to check out..
we went changi village to have breakfast..
after that shake our way to je..
for lunch..
n lastly home sweet home..
today's 1st day of sch.
but nt my 1st day of work..
office's so chaotic..
with all those PARENTS... STUDENTS... NON STOP PHONES COMIN IN..
n LETTERS N LETTERS N LETTERS!!!!
gosh..

cant even have minute of silence til 230..
jux feel so slpy now..
zzzzz